posted by K | filed under Misfortune, Ruby | 2 Comments

This week we had a lot of firsts. Ruby had (still has) her first cold, which brought along with it her first perpetually snotty nose, her first non-drool-induced cough, my first experience with having snot wiped on the shoulders of all my shirts. (How do all babies seem to know how to do that?) Ruby, [...]

posted by K | filed under Misfortune, Ruby | 11 Comments

Last night was horrible. I thought that one night last week was bad, but this was epic levels of bad. She woke up three times, screamed, SCREAMED, arched her back, kicked, screamed while I held her but screamed louder if I lay her down, acted hungry but refused to eat, screamed some more every time [...]

posted by K | filed under Grumpy Bear, Misfortune, Ruby | 25 Comments

Sometimes, there are moments of incredible sweetness – when Ruby grins and coos and gurgles, or when I sing to her, and her eyes lock on my face like it is the only thing tethering her to the world. Other times, there of moments of annoyance – when I spend 20 minutes soothing her to [...]

posted by K | filed under Grumpy Bear, Misfortune, Ruby | 9 Comments

The “leaping out of bed” for middle-of-the-night feedings phase has passed. Leaping has been replaced with rolling, crawling, dragging, accompanied by groaning and complaining, and preceded by fervently whispering into the darkness, “Please go back to sleep. Please go back to sleep.” I still love seeing my baby again after a couple of hours sleep, [...]

posted by K | filed under Adoption, Misfortune | 6 Comments

Bought two pairs of shoes. Ate fried chicken, waffle fries, and a Chik-fil-A milkshake. The cashier’s name at Chik-Fil-A was Greg. Of course it was. Could it have been anything else? Threw up milkshake because head hurt so bad from crying. Slept 12 hours. It is morning, and life still sucks. I am numb and [...]

posted by K | filed under Adoption, Misfortune | 9 Comments

G’s father will not be signing the papers. Today he had a visit scheduled with G and served J papers saying he is suing her for custody of G. His timing could not be worse for deciding to give a shit. I don’t know what to do with myself. I am wandering around the house [...]

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