posted by K | filed under Commentary, Pregnancy, Ruby | 12 Comments

My plan was to gain only 15 to 20 pounds during my pregnancy, because that’s what online charts told me a chunkier person such as myself should gain. But then the doctor never mentioned a number to aim for, and every time I went and had gained a little more, he said I was right [...]

posted by K | filed under Pregnancy, Ruby | 8 Comments

The day Ruby was born, the hydrangea by the back door was in bloom, enormous hot pink flowers vibrant against the dark green leaves. Last year, this hydrangea did not bloom. I found meaning in this in the foggy gray light of morning. We were on our way to meet our child, our dream, finally. [...]

posted by K | filed under Pregnancy, Ruby | 25 Comments

My new occupation is staring at Ruby, so between that and what feels like near-constant feeding and diaper changing (this girl is a champion pooper), there hasn’t been a lot of time for composing her birth story for the blog. But for now, I’ll say this: She is more amazing than I ever imagined. I [...]

posted by K | filed under Pregnancy | 10 Comments

Not-so-bright and early tomorrow morning, D and I will be heading to the hospital to get this show on the road. Last night I dreamed Ruby was here, and she had light brown hair and D’s nose and was perfect and wonderful in every way. In addition to the excitement of finally seeing her, I [...]

posted by K | filed under Pregnancy | 4 Comments

The countdown is on – 10 days left! And with such a small amount of time left before I magically transform from pregnant lady to first-time mom, I’m beginning to feel the slightest bit nostalgic. Sure, this nine months has been a parade of miserable symptoms – as soon as one subsides, another leaps in [...]

posted by K | filed under Adoption, Infertility, Pregnancy | 8 Comments

I’ve attended a lot of baby showers in my day. Sisters-in-law, cousins, friends, co-workers. I’ve bought tiny baby outfits and Raggedy Ann books and light-up soother thingies. I’ve cried in the baby aisle at Target, while clutching a registry print-out. I’ve pushed down bitter feelings and painted on smiles and responded with blank stares to [...]

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